That’s Right!


I may have been missing the freedom I had working for myself in Madrid, but now I feel a sense of relief wash over me at least.

Yes, I have a new job!

Even though I currently work from home, the majority of the time, I didn’t feel clinical research and policy was really adding the sugar to my spice! Plus of course regardless whether I am working from home, I still had to deal with ‘The Fools’.

Now though I merely smile and think I’ll be gone soon! All because I’ve been offered a job I just couldn’t refuse, which now enables me to say adios to ‘The Fools’; hoping I don’t encounter more fools in my new destination. Yes, I get to move onwards and upwards once more!!

“I’m so happy…..come along if you feel happiness is for you……I’m so happy!”



The Stupid Fool

I was so annoyed yesterday with that stupid fool. I suppose that is my fault though, for letting her get to me. Yet, she is such a little *expletive* though.

My main problem stems from the fact I really want to tell her to *expletive*off! That is why I feel so aggravated by the situation, because I can’t say what I truly want to and remain professional (whatever that means, as to me it means being two-faced, a liar and a butt kisser)!

I do know what motivates the stupid fool to be an utter idiot with me. She is such a picky mare and all because she is jealous. Why else would the stupid fool single me out with such zeal, other than the fact I make her look stupid, and she can’t condensed to me. So, she tries to portray an impression that she can merely to upset me or spite me. Yet, she is spiting herself.

The other one said that the stupid fool is supposed to be more intelligent than we are; no she isn’t. Just because the stupid fool is of a higher rank doesn’t make her automatically more intelligent. Her behaviour, actions, attitude and general posturing doesn’t exuded intelligence, just B.S! Yes, she does have (supposed to have) a knowledge base and skill set I haven’t, but I could learn it if I wanted to. There isn’t much I can’t learn or won’t learn as my experience dictates! My path is not hers though, and I don’t want to do her job. I would actually equate doing her job as a personal failure in my life!

Yet, it is this prevailing notion in that place which completely sums up the attitude, ethos and thinking of them all. It is; a place for everything and everything in its place. Or as I like to correct them; being kept down and condescended to as though we are all indentured serfs. These people have a serious case of deference and enjoy tugging their forelock; which by the way if you weren’t aware of it already, just isn’t my style.

That’s not how I was brought up; I speak up and challenge everything. I believe in fair play and fair treatment. I also think anyone can do anything, and money nor the career you have makes you a better person or akin to God.

The thing is I know I have a brain and that I am educated. No one could convince me of the reverse, and I certainly don’t need to prove a thing to anyone (let alone the stupid fool)! Yet, the people I am stuck with (not family, not friends), are nothing like me. I have nothing in common with them or their attitudes, but I have to pretend to have a commonality; but mostly I am completely disinterested in them.

I have gained what they haven’t; although I am proud of this, I don’t make a point of it or brag about it to create reaction or effect (that’s not me either). I have qualifications, experience, skills, expertise and knowledge. I have worked in different roles covering different sectors. I have been through the  mill personally and come out the other end having learned, grown and developed. I am capable and also talented. I have done, have been, have achieved, and still will do. I am cultured and well versed with places and people.

The stupid fool who thinks she is condescending to me, already knows all about me and my skill set (et al). She also knows that she has no ground available to her by which she could look down upon me; couple that with the fact she is about 4 foot tall, and therefore physically never could in any case! I don’t say too much about myself though (unlike them). I like my personal space, but when their bragging begins I do retort. Yet every time I say something their faces turn sour, which is their way of saying “We hate you”!

I know that jealously is a terrible thing, but it certainly demonstrates just how important I must be, and of course jealousy is the biggest compliment of all so I merely smile to myself. Such silly reactions certainly make them appear to be insignificant, especially as they are all the type of people who require someone to condescend to; just to make their insecure selves feel better.

Of course I do play a role there, but it is not the real me. I play this role just to get by, which proves the power lies have within the workplace. We all seemingly have to pretend and lie to fit in, and actually ensure we have a job; it just seems so empty and fake.

Employers perpetuate this too and are setting people up to fail. It is an odd culture whereby we encourage employees to be liars, sneaky, spiteful and back stabbers. People it seems just don’t want nice or a nice truth. They don’t want diversity and variety, they want what they think makes a good employee, not person, employee; a thing, an object. God help if you rebel, speak up, disagree or want more!

Employers want someone they can manipulate, bully, harass, intimidate, use and abuse. They want us to jump to their commands and have no input, no value, no respect in return. I question what  employers can gain from that, because people aren’t happy; people cannot deliver their best under those conditions.

If people were treated better, they’d be happier and more productive. If they had more freedom to be themselves and speak their mind, they’d be happier. If the power balance was more stable in work and people didn’t become depots in their roles, people would be happier. If it wasn’t one rule for one and one rule for another, people would be happier.

People would be happier, perhaps therein lies the issue; who wants anyone to actually be happy in work and life?! Heaven help! Perhaps if that stupid fool wasn’t so curtailed she wouldn’t act like such a, fool, and maybe as a knock on effect those she comes into contact with would feel happier too! What a revelation; treat others as you would like to be treated – who knew that was such a hard lesson to learn? Well, she is a stupid fool though, so what can I expect!

Happy Humanity

Compelled by some internal ignoramus, people feel free to condescend, deride one another, cheat and lie. I wonder whether this is because these people, and their vile behaviour has been tolerated; never previously challenged or sanctioned before by anybody.

I also wonder why people are afraid of change, when all they seem capable of doing is moaning about X or Y their entire lives to other people who have their own s**t going on. Which by the way, these moaning Minnies couldn’t give a damn about; being so wrapped up in their own ‘life’.

Why do complete strangers vent their pent up anger, hate, spite, guilt and general bullying behaviour on other complete strangers and expect no reproach.

Why is it people just seem mean spirited in a general sense and enjoy mocking and upsetting others. Who said a daily dose of poison was good for the soul.

What is it that allows people to become disinclined to offer their help to those who truly need it. Does everyone walk around with blinkers; if it doesn’t concern them then they don’t give a damn; even if it is happening under their own noses.

Why do people give advice based on their own narrow interpretation of the world about them. Why do they think what they have to say is worth listening to, when often it encourages others to do harm to themselves.

Why do people think they alone face X or Y, and view themselves as the only ones unfairly treated. Just as though no one else has ever suffered other than them.

Why do people think they have the right to ensure others follow in their footsteps. Whose idea of life are they peddling. Why do they think the restraints they have applied to themselves should be applicable to everyone around them and their lives too.

I wonder why I don’t have anything witty or enlightening to add as a conclusion to this series of wondering questions, but then again, why should I.










Whose Biological Clock?

It is a very normal and accepted state of affairs; the older man and the younger woman. These relationships are so common place they have become a cliche. Yet, when the reverse is considered; an older woman and a younger man people seem to be sickened by the very idea.


What is good for the goose is good for the gander, or so I’ve been told. So I ask myself; what makes us sit in judgement over a woman doing what she wants with whomever she wants to do it with (in a literal sense)?

Attraction, and even love aren’t always formulated from what we as individuals may perceive to be ideal. We all have different tastes and desires after all, because by our very nature or nurture, we are all different. Whether it be older men, younger women, older women and younger men, who really cares or more importantly why should we care? After all, it isn’t our business and it isn’t our life!

What I find I dislike most when I hear of or see other people’s reactions to an older women and younger man’s relationship, is that the older woman is so highly disapproved of. Almost as though once a woman is passed thirty it is game over!

Perhaps the reason for this is because once a woman passes thirty she is suddenly deemed unworthy of gaining love, affection and sex from anyone, especially a younger man? Could this be because she is considered to be well passed her prime functions of; marriage material, a baby making machine or sex goddess? If so I wonder whose biological clock (and just to let you know I hate this phrase), is actually ticking?

If we are all attracted to one another based on those three options we are making a rod for our own backs. 

I find this aversion to older women and younger men to be contradictory, and quite sad actually. I say this not just because I am a woman either. There are so many intelligent, talented, beautiful and successful women out there, passed thirty, forty or even fifty. They still have their whole life to live. Yet, society insists on forcing these independent, fierce and capable beings into small and restrictive boxes, dictating what they should and shouldn’t be doing.

Isn’t it about time these boxes were crushed under these women’s designer heels?

I for one believe that; no longer should the soft top sports car be the preferred babe hunting vehicle of men only, it isn’t desperate to want to pay for your man’s designer suit, it isn’t unladylike or shocking to appreciate a younger physique, especially one that sports a six pack.

Basically, for anyone still in doubt; it isn’t wrong or disgusting to find someone attractive who is younger or older than you are, and it isn’t wrong or disgusting to find their success, money or experience attractive too!

I say; let us live and let live!