Since my last post ‘A Helping Hand’, I have been trying to reconsider my position or imposition.
I do not propose to dwell upon what I wrote, although I realise it will take time to change what I feel I might be missing within myself or my life. Yet, at the moment I am looking at reassessing myself. I am on a mission of self discovery – I want to relocate exactly what I am all about as a person, to try and redefine me. Since I last checked – I have changed, just as my situation has. This is something I have to accept, come to terms with, work with and not run away from.
So, I took on some advice from those bloggers who responded to my last post (BY THE WAY – THANK YOU!!). I have obtained a copy of ‘What Colour Is Your Parachute’ – which is helping to push me into quantifying myself, to ask myself questions I might be a little afraid of.
I am looking into what ‘meet up’ groups are out there in Madrid for me to get together with people who might be of interest.
Once again I am looking at volunteering positions, and perhaps taking on whatever part time jobs might be available.
I cannot say for certain if any of these things will bring me what I look for or indeed even come to fruition; yet, I will try.
What I do believe is that where I am now, is where I wanted to be. I have gotten exactly what I required, and also, what I needed. I shouldn’t therefore see this as a wasted opportunity – it is a gift of time out from things that injured me. When I am ready to re-engage with whatever I lost or left behind or I buried inside – I will, and not one moment before. I can’t force myself to do, be, or become anything until I am ready, until the time is right. So, I accept what is, I will try to progress and find a direction, BUT, I propose to just enjoy what I have, as that is all there is.
Thank you, sincerely, to the bloggers who responded and provided advice and expressed concern.
I appreciate your input and all you shared with me.