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Welcome To No Sleep Anonymous……..


Awake and counting the hours till Dawn……….

Well, I have to say I am physically exhausted and now must be running on adrenalin. I am not sleeping very well at night; in fact I deem 4 hours of uninterrupted sleep as Heavenly bliss!

What the Hell is going on I don’t know, and I don’t like it either.

I can only think it is my brain to blame. I have had this problem off and on throughout my life, and it seems to coincide with having too much going on in my life at one time. I can’t seem to flick the off button on my brain; consequently my mind runs on, and on, and on – all day and all night.

I know it is no good for me, I mean when I was 14 and 15 in school no sleep meant nothing, but now, ummm, its a big difference. I mean it isn’t as though I’m a big ‘mover and shaker’ in the world, but my world, doesn’t matter how small, means too much to me to waste it lying around on the couch and feeling like a zombie.

I envy people who can just switch off and sleep the sleep of the dead. Let me clarify, I don’t mean the actual dead, I mean a heavy sleep where nothing rouses the sleeper or disturbs them. I read how sleep is important to health, and we should all have 6-8 hours a night to maintain our well-being. OK, I get that, but is not as though I am avoiding sleep on purpose, if I could I would sleep, but I can’t!!! My body just won’t submit to sleep, not unless its 100% in the zone, and it never really is (does this make sense). I am like the ‘Princess and the Pea’; any little thing and my brain detects it as an annoyance. I then can’t settle.

I am so desperate to switch off, though I don’t advocate them, I have been day dreaming about sleeping tablets! The relief the thought of having them provides is weirdly comforting. I JUST WANNA SLEEP!!!!!!!!!!

Anyway, none of this is really consequential! It isn’t the end of the world, nobody has died and I am not facing mortal jeopardy. Yet, I think this all clearly explains my erratic mind, twitchy feeling of restlessness, my odd behaviour, apathy and lethargy towards everything, my wandering ideas and over sensitivity, oh and the sprinkling of paranoia.

Please let me sleep tonight, PLEASE!!!!!!!!!

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9 thoughts on “Welcome To No Sleep Anonymous……..

  1. I have always been blessed by great sleep to be honest, but being in my 7th month of pregnancy and suffering from pelvic pain, sleep is not my best friend anymore…:( Not because of thoughts running through my mind (although that has been a problem in the past as well), but more because I can’t seem to move away from painful sleeping positions! ;P Hope you get some good sleep soon!

    • Hey, thanks for your comment!!! Ouch, should imagine it is a little difficult to sleep at night, you have my complete sympathises. Hope you find that comfortable sleeping position soon.
      I have been OK for the last couple of nights, mainly because I have stayed away from writing and using the computer too much. However I have broken my rule, and though I vowed to be off the computer by 7 it is now nearly 8 here! I hope I sleep tonight, but think I shall be back at the mercy of my racing mind!
      Thank you though 🙂

  2. I had (still do when I let things slip) the same problem (I can sometimes sleep only 2 hrs a night). It started when I started to write because my brain never shuts off. It is always thinking, searching, rehashing, editing, worrying, etc. What works for me is a good long walk or exercise before 5 p.m., no caffeine after 2:00 p.m., no writing, computer, or news after 7:00p.m., and no “drama” after 9:00 (friends or TV). I watch comedies or read something funny, turn on soothing music, and when my body naturally begins to wind down around 10 or 11, I roll into bed. It is an equation that works wonders. Hope it helps.

    • Hi,
      Thank you for your comment, and the fantastic advice. It is great to hear from someone who understands, but has found a way to solve it!!!!!
      I think this is what has begun the sleep issue with me once more; I feel my mind ticking over all the time, I can’t get it to shut off!! I do exercise, but straight after I am on go fast mode; so I drink coffee and don’t chill out. I suppose I don’t chill out until I go to bed actually! I have been watching ‘gangster’ films and docs too before bed, not good!!

      Tomorrow I am going to try your advice, and make the effort to get back into a decent routine.

      Thank you again for you advice, take care.

      Bex 🙂

  3. oh my god, am so so sorry, I wish I was there. You told a doctor? Do you exercise? do you have a best friend or parents to tell your secrets or things which disturb you?

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